In my island, making decisions comes after you have responded to a person. It is easy to say yes to a person just get rid of but its hard to say no. Although sometimes the truth is, we all forget what we said. However, it all depends on the situation, who you are talking to, what will happen, and if you are in a hurry, then it happens.
For example, one of your classmate from high school back in the days found you in a store somewhere in the island. This person notices you but you didn't really recognized him/her. This person had a party coming up this week. The person thought of inviting you so she/he approached you and told you about it. At that point, you are very nervous but you don't want to hurt his/her feelings. Finally, he/she starts to talk about the party and the person wanted to invite you. Now this is where the situation happens. You feel like you don't want to hurt the person's feelings, you don't want to let the person feel rejected, so you just say yes. Although that was not your final decision, it was just an answer either to make the person feel better or to get rid of him/her. In a way its bad or good. But it all depends on how you deal with it. But that's not the end. In the long run after your response you start to think about it. You think of things your doing on that day, or other things that comes to your mind. You know you said yes to your classmate, but this is where you get to make the real decision. The real choice of whether to go or not.
I grew up doing the same thing. Sometimes I say "yes" to people just to make them feel accepted. Sometimes I say "yes" to people just to get rid of them because I have something to do or just because I'm nervous. Sometimes I say "yes" because I really mean it and I want to spend time with the person. Usually it's hard for me to say "no" to things. What do you think?
Really! I don't know how'd I got here. No plans, No ideas, nothing. All I know is that God works in many ways. I know God is so mysterious, I don't have words to express my mind, my feelings, my joy at this moment. And then some.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Speechless!
John 15:7 "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you." These were the very words of Jesus when He was here in this world, explaining how we can live a life that we can desire when we abide in God and God alone.
It was a night of nervousness and scariness. I wanted to go to this trip so much and I can't think of anyone who will support me and help me with my ticket going to the "STATES." Although I had faith in God and I know that He will provide, the night was still silent and inside of me, was quietness. I slightly went to my bed, covered my feet with my blanket and then faced down I prayed, "Lord, if it is really and truly, your will for me to go on this trip, you know that I have a ticket that is needed to be paid. You know all things, and you know what do I need in order for me to do the things you want me to do. Father, if it is truly your will for me to go, then give me a sign telling me that I will go. Pay my ticket, Father God. I will give myself to you, and for you to use me in any way you want me. I desire to serve you and for you to use me as a tool." Then I went to sleep. The very next day, I was hanging out with my friend, Jen, under a mango tree on our campus. We were discussing some issues and for some reason Steve, one of our Staff member from school, came to where we were hanging out and was telling us something (I couldn't remember) and then the discussion went on until we ended up talking about how my ticket was going to be paid. Jen, who is my best friend, told him about some people who were going to drop some money for my ticket that afternoon. I had a certain amount of money that was needed to be met in order to pay my ticket. My friend, Jen, told us that some people were going to pay almost or maybe half of the payment. Yet, still I needed more. Well, the excitement starts here. When Jen was done, Steve told us that there were some people who will pay half of the payment and someone saw the post that was made on "FACEBOOK" and wanted to donate some money for my ticket. And that my ticket is paid. Its finished. Its done. In that very moment, the moment when I looked back to my prayer that night, the moment that I was so struck as if I was hit by something, the moment where I couldn't say anything, I was just overwhelmed. Not only that God had provided but He hears me. He never turn aside, He never complain. He does what He does. I was just sitting there under the mango tree, overwhelmed, and speechless. Jen looked at me and was amazed. We were all excited and was just praising God.
Many times we think God does not listen to us. Many times we think God does not know what we want. Most of the time we speak to God and talk to Him but we don't listen. Yet, He still listen to what we say and what we do. Many times our ears our closed but our mouths are open telling Him what to do and not to do. How have you been with God lately? Are you asking and listening? Or are you just asking? Give God your ears today.
It was a night of nervousness and scariness. I wanted to go to this trip so much and I can't think of anyone who will support me and help me with my ticket going to the "STATES." Although I had faith in God and I know that He will provide, the night was still silent and inside of me, was quietness. I slightly went to my bed, covered my feet with my blanket and then faced down I prayed, "Lord, if it is really and truly, your will for me to go on this trip, you know that I have a ticket that is needed to be paid. You know all things, and you know what do I need in order for me to do the things you want me to do. Father, if it is truly your will for me to go, then give me a sign telling me that I will go. Pay my ticket, Father God. I will give myself to you, and for you to use me in any way you want me. I desire to serve you and for you to use me as a tool." Then I went to sleep. The very next day, I was hanging out with my friend, Jen, under a mango tree on our campus. We were discussing some issues and for some reason Steve, one of our Staff member from school, came to where we were hanging out and was telling us something (I couldn't remember) and then the discussion went on until we ended up talking about how my ticket was going to be paid. Jen, who is my best friend, told him about some people who were going to drop some money for my ticket that afternoon. I had a certain amount of money that was needed to be met in order to pay my ticket. My friend, Jen, told us that some people were going to pay almost or maybe half of the payment. Yet, still I needed more. Well, the excitement starts here. When Jen was done, Steve told us that there were some people who will pay half of the payment and someone saw the post that was made on "FACEBOOK" and wanted to donate some money for my ticket. And that my ticket is paid. Its finished. Its done. In that very moment, the moment when I looked back to my prayer that night, the moment that I was so struck as if I was hit by something, the moment where I couldn't say anything, I was just overwhelmed. Not only that God had provided but He hears me. He never turn aside, He never complain. He does what He does. I was just sitting there under the mango tree, overwhelmed, and speechless. Jen looked at me and was amazed. We were all excited and was just praising God.
Many times we think God does not listen to us. Many times we think God does not know what we want. Most of the time we speak to God and talk to Him but we don't listen. Yet, He still listen to what we say and what we do. Many times our ears our closed but our mouths are open telling Him what to do and not to do. How have you been with God lately? Are you asking and listening? Or are you just asking? Give God your ears today.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Newbie
Hello! My name is Leeman Sebastian. I am a Palauan. I live in Guam right now. I don't know what to say next. I'm just trying to be a normal person but soon I'll be abnormal. But Hey! Life is Good. With Christ I'm happy.
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